Day of anger

2day is really terrible that I jz gotta blog about it.

This morn mom again nagged me for coughing n not drinking d cough syrup. The medicine is so bitter I think it's expired. So, I leave home for office about 10 mins earlier than usual 2 avoid continuous of nagging attack. Due 2 jam, I reach office about d same time as usual.

Then, when I wanted to arrange for Thurs nite @ Carine hse 2 celebrate her bday n also Fri lou sang dinner, she was complaining why is it so late 2 send out sms. 1st, I was waiting for her 2 provide me wit d details, so I can hit 2 birds wit 1 stone ma (by sending our 2 invitations in 1 sms n yes I'm kiasu). 2nd, most of us know about it orally, v've been passing words ard. Dunno wat gotten into her, so bad mood tat she wanna cancel off d whole thing after scolding me for not sending d sms 2 get attendance earlier. But according 2 Catherine, now it's on again. Wonder if I shud go, I scared she will show me black face esp I'm @ her hse, her territory ma.

Jz caring for Carine: Y r u so bad temper recently? 2day is not d 1st time. Last week @ G6 oso u throw tantrum by scolding a guy (who is also a jerk) who came into our VIP room 2 answer a phone call & also scold Bryan aka fren os Ashley n Coey. I dun mind u got angry @ me coz v were frens for so long, I know u r short temper for short time oni, u can't b mad @ me 4ever but if u need some1 2 share ur stress, I'm here, ok? But most probably u dun read this coz u dunno about d existance of this blog. Perhaps I'll let u know later, after u cool down a bit.

After tat msn conversations, my boss again giving me problem. He's a very nasty n stingy boss but I tolerate him coz d pay is consider good and I'm oni working 5 days wit access 2 internet for blogging n fb n msn. :P

Well, let's hope after this things will go smoother.

Nothing of many things

It is almost a week since I last blog. Y din a blog for so long? So many nothing wit a few something happened. Ok, enuf of fai wah. I was jz plain lazy.

Last week was actually fun! Friday after work Kin Ming (thanks dude) fetch me 2 Tze Lung hse. Choon Meng, Rachael, Sook Kien + hubby was there. Then Kean Seng, Rain + Karen arrived. Rain brought her leftover of fireworks from last year for us. Turns out d younger Sook Kien is actually expert in making bombs as she bundles a few bombs and sometimes differ type of fireworks 2gether. Geng!

Saturday many of us went 2 G6 @ Gardens to pre-celebrate Carine's bday. Carine was really slim n beautiful in her new dress. Tat dress is really nice 2. This is d 2nd time I went 2 G6 but this time v got a private room all by ourselves. Saw many frens there but as usual I can't recall their names, oni faces tat look familiar. Took a few pixs but it's oni availble @ FB. Carine + Coey is really GENG @ drinking, no wonder they r called d DRINKING QUEENS. A cat was drunk tat nite. Yi Chian + Lee is being really nice in helping 2 send me n d drunken cat home. Lee was so man, he came to level 6, waited for us outside d toilet and cradle d drunken cat to lift n send us home. Thanks a lot, Lee + Yi Chian!

Carine with her bday cakes + gal frens

Gals group pix wit d bday gal

I woke up early on Sun, wanna zzz but dunno y knot zzz. Then when I get 2 zzz in the evening time, bro come 2 disturb me, waking me up again. Bro, KC, Mom + myself went 2 Times Square. Although v r oni eating normal stuffs but I was really enjoying our time 2gether (mayb bcoz I was really bored during CNY). Then v watched movie All's Well, Ends Well. It was a comedy, jz some silly jokes n laffing wit no actual stories. Other than d few regular n famous actors such as Louis Koo, Raymond Wong Pak Ming, Sandra Ng and Ronald Cheng, the rest r not famous geh. I think many of other more famous actors was in d other movie, 72 tenants. Anyway, both r jz silly comedy. I hope I can still catch Woohoo 大日子 but I think chances r slim. So, let's put hope for Alice in Wonderland 3D. kekeke

D movie is 10.20pm n finished ard 12.00 midnite. When v r on our way home, v saw many nice fireworks. I think this is it, this is almost d end of 2010 CNY, which was 1 of d lousiest CNY I've ever had. No feel, bored n lonely n LESSER angpows. Let's hope this is a good year for Roaster.

Btw, I was having fever and flu b4 CNY n coughing even until now. D cough syrup tat Jeff bot for me on nien 30 is almost finish. Despite I dun like 2 drink bitter medicine but I m taking d cough syrup coz mom's nagging n I dun wanna wake her up in d middle of d nite. Let's hope I recover soon. I even stop drinking cold drinks. I'm a good gal!

This is suppose 2 b yday's posting but Celcom Broadband was so slow @ my hse so I gotta wait till 2day oni can post @ office.

Prawn is looking for her CNY mood

2day start work lor. Din take leave coz I'm saving it for next month's special sex sec skool trip 2 Hong Kong. YEAH!!!

Previous years mom, bro + me had reunion dinner @ KFC and Tesco Extra, Cheras's food court. This year v break another record by having reunion dinner @ Sushi King, Leisure Mall. This year special guest is Tony, sis, Cecilia + Daniel.

Dear Amanda: mom n Bee Ling said thanks for ur sms.

I had some pixs in my E71 but bcoz my lappie is down, I can oni post those pixs later. Sushi King have this small lou sang, which surprisingly tasted quite ok. Daniel + Cecilia had fun selecting our small dishes and bcoz I'm on diet, bro is kind enuf 2 eat all my left over rice. kekeke. Oni mom + bro had wasabi as Tony + sis not so keen on crying. Neither did Daniel nor Cecilia wanna try those wasabi. I oledi start making wantan coz got early flu. Now still flu. wtf, alwaz got sick during CNY.

Lou Sang from Sushi King

Bro + Daniel

Cheese tai chi

Prawn + mom

Sisters pix

Tony, Kok Hoong, Daniel, Cecilia, Mom + Bee Leng

Family pix: Bee Leng, Kok Hoong, Daniel, Cecilia, Mom + Prawn

After dinner, as per many previous years, I get ready 2 watch 72 Tenants (CNY movies) wit my sex sec skool frens. The movie is really funny wit lotsa silly acts but no meaning at all. Said to have no supporting actors/actresses as all 188 actors/actresses r main casts but not true lor. Many actors/actresses come out oni awhile and oni once, I think they r still k leh feh lor.

Chor 1 went 2 grandparent's hse. Lai Yee came in her new Myvi bringing Aunty May + Wen Hau. After our early  late breakfast, v went bak 2 my hse for some Wii. It's really funny playing wii esp wit new ppl as they alwaz do some very funny actions. kekeke. More pixs but I hope I dun get lawyer letter from our Lauyar Lai Yee. kekeke pls dun sue me.

Cake bought by Aunty May

Prawn + Grandma

Bee Leng finished d whole bowl (jz kidding lar)

Our no balance geh lawyer playing wii

Chor 1 nite ard 10.30pm went 2 Lau Kam hse for gambling. Play all sorts of card games from Black Jack to 3 cheong (3 cards) to ngau (something like 3 can change to 6 and vice versa)to 3 cheong cum ngau cum poker (3 games in 1 deal). kekeke. I have no idea wat game it was but I won RM20.00. Can u imagine I bet oni RM1.00 for each game and use model of RM10.00 to play from 10.30pm to 4.00am. kekeke and most important is v had lotsa fun shouting (for d cards v wan) and laffing.

Chor 2 & 3 I jz stay home n resting, watching tv, can't online coz my lappie's screen is all black then 2day start work. I feel lonely and tot it must b bcoz I got dump or bcoz I'm getting older mature thus I lost all my CNY mood. Mayb I think 2 much coz more gathering coming up this weekends.

Bday + Valentines 2010

I wanted 2 wait till after CNY 2 blog about ALL of my bday stories but this is so special so I'll jz blog about this 2 pre bday + a valentine's day special 1st.

Last week Wednesday, d gals actually treated me San Francisco Steak House, after May shopped @ MNG. She bot some nice turtlenecks and it was a good bargain she got. Well, she said she lose weight so she deserves smaller sizes clothes. kekeke oh, Gladys is a special appearance.

Bak 2 San Francisco, v tot Yvonne won't b eating n as usual she's kinda late. kekeke so v ordered drinks (normal 100+ for Amanda and ice lemon tea for May, Yvonne n myself), 3 main courses n an appetizer.

Amanda order this nanchos wit cheese. D green color geh is not wasabi, dunno wat it is.

May order fish and chips, very nice n d fish is not sheng.

I order this lamb shanks oso very nice.

Yvonne order this but d ciken breast is a bit kasar. kekeke

V shared all d food ngam ngam 4 portions (Gladys went shopping) and I'm actually very happy coz Yvonne ate. kekeke

This is d earliest bday meal, thanks 2 all my jie mei. hugs.

Yday Mr C n I went out for dinner. He remembered I told him about Full House n suggest v go there but bcoz I've been there twice recently (for May's bday + Xmas wit family) so I decline. Then I remember this Cafe Cafe recommend by May and many blogs so v give it a try.

D ambiance is really nice and romantic. There r many couples there n v r lucky 2 have vacant table. :P

V ordered our food and enjoy each other's companion.I shud have put on some make up n do my hair but he reached my hse early 2 pick me so I was rushing down like a soh poh.

V wanted 2 order Lobster Bisque but it's oni available for weekends, so v ordered Soup of d day.

Oven - Baked Cod Fillet wit black olive dressing. Mr C loves this. Baked Lamb Racks wit Mustard Vinaigrette dressing.Oven Baked Cod Fillet wit Black Olive Dressing. V both loves this.

Lamb Racks cuts into smaller pieces, good service provided by Mr C. Thanks.

Prawn wit d special dessert.Close up of d dessert.

Dessert wit special meaning.

1st year Mr C brought me 2 Tamarind Hill/Spring @ Ampang. Tat was a very romantic place dimly lited, v had a garden + lake view seat.

2nd year, last year, v were @ Jake's and I had my 1st lobster and it was really nice 2.

This year, our 3rd year v went 2 Cafe Cafe. kekeke

Come 2 think about it, I have never celebrate his bday. Anyway, spending time wit him is really special and comfortable no matter wat's d occasion. Let's c wat v will have for his bday in March or next year valentines. kekeke

Thanks Mr C, a man I admire & good fren & good mentor. I hope our relationship remain this special 4ever.

Nitemare

This morning I woke up @ 5am, all sweating. I had a nitemare n jump up, sat upright on my bed, although I din sream (not like in movie) but I was really scared n my heart is all pumping n I can't zzz bak after tat.

I rarely have dreams n most of d time, never remember them incl this 1 but it's something about fighting n arguement wit family, I got kick out from my hse, feeling like nobody ever care o wan me anymore. This feeling of "not wanted around" is scary.

Wat does this mean? Will my family really kick me out from hse? Recently I have regular word war wit mom 2. All my world seems 2 turn upside down, nothing comes out rite.

Stress? I dunno.

I dun think I like nitemare + how come v never remember our sweet dreams? Where is my sweet dreams?

Market Rate

I m still having heartache thinking of Bean nowadays but I jz can't help 2 b happy for a moment when I think of I still got market rate leh. kekeke. Let me show off a while here, pls, jz 2 boast my confident.

I tot it's bad 2 get dump when I'm ALMOST 30, during bday + Valentine's day + CNY n also when I regret n wanna make things rite again but it's 2 late. Thanks 2 all these men, giving me some fun time n of coz wat touches me is many frens actually shower me wit words of encouragement, u know who u all n many of u are not reading this but I do appreciate frens like u all.

Case 1 (Serious Friendship)
There's this man, whom have been in my life for 3 years, never wanna let go of this special relationship v r sharing. He teaches me n guided me a lot like a good mentor. He's some1 I look up to as a good example n for advise. Frankly I think me having a bf o not won't change much n v r still close frens.

Case 2 (Serious Friendship)

I got a loving husband who alwaz tok c**k sayin he wans me but 2 shy 2 take action till v remain good frens till now. n of coz i love him 4 being so kind 2 me.

Case 3 (Fun Friendship)

This guy usually v keep in touch once a while oni. But recently he call n sms quite often n last friday v went out 2 club @ Opera n yday v went for movie. Yday I told him I jz got break up n not ready for another relationship yet n he said all these bullshit ie I will not give up, will give u time etc. I personally dun think this is serious but I'm glad tat there r ppl who still wan me, thinking tat he can get younger n prettier gals. He's ok looking n he is a sweet talker, thus making me so happy but it's jz not something I trust n can depend on.

Case 4, 5 & 6 (1 nite Fun Friendship)
Guy from #3 brought me 2 Opera last Fri nite n I believe it must b those dim lightings. 2 college guys aged 20 & 22 asked for my number. Another guy who is 2 years older than me oso asked for my number n when I reach home tat nite, v chatted for more than an hour b4 I told him tat I need my beauty zzz.

Alrite, I know, all those r nothing serious (except for case 1 & 2 whom will alwaz remain as good frens tat will stand by me thru thick n thin). Still my confident got boost up a bit. In my mind, my heartache must b bcoz I have confident in Bean tat he won't give up on me, tat's y I m rebellious n sure tat I WILL win but his sudden change really defeats my confident.

Let's jz say I'm having fun wit heartache for now n no so afraid of goin thru my next journey alone.

I deserve it

I’m moving on. This is d end.

I deserve it (in actual) coz he’s a good guy & my fault doesn’t appreciate him 2 late, after he has NO more special feeling 2 me, after he MOVE ON without me, after he gets BOREDn decide 2 LET GO of me.

I deserve it (2 pujuk myself) coz I shud get a more passionate man.

I was sad, cried, felt heartache coz I do love him (seriously when v r 2gether) n esp when I wanted 2 improve n wanted 2 patch things up, mend bak this relationship. I guess it’s 2 late. I’m sad + worried, esp when it’s near my bday + Valentine’s Day + CNY (where many ppl will ask where’s ur bf n when r u getting married?) I’m a coward.

I wanted 2 meet up & tell him let’s tok about this, wanted 2 tell him I wanna give it another try again coz I dun wanna give up just yet, I hope I can built bak this relationship or grow our feelings 2 b stronger, but he decided otherwise, so I dun wanna can’t force him.

Got dump when I’m GOIN TO BE 30, feels like 2 old 2 b dump n 2 start all over again. Will I still have d energy 2 lose weight? Will I still have d mood 2 make up + tidy my hair? Will I still have d courage 2 go up 2 a stranger 2 say hello? Will I still have d guts 2 say, let’s go steady? Steady of coz but those starting steps r scary.

But I went thru a couple of months without him n I’m doin ok. I m sad now perhaps I realise this is for real or I jz realise I gonna lose him forever.

Anyway, he is really a nice guy. Let’s hope in future he will show more of his care n feeling 2 his special 1. N let’s hope I can b stronger n better n will meet my own destiny, soon.